This is my favorite philosophy of all time! It means no worries!! For a long time I thought that this translated into "no responsiblities" but the more I think about it the more I get a different message. This message is more like, "Have faith and you'll still have responsibility but Hakuna Matata!" Christ has shouldered all of our burdens and worries so we can live fully by the motto Hakuna Matata! = ) Good-bye fancy clothes and diamond rings!! So long super nice car! ~Therefore I tell you not to worry about what you will eat or drink or what you will wear. Is not life more important that food and the body more important than clothes!~ Matthew 6:24-25 Hakuna Matata! No worries!!
~And who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?~ Matthew 6:27
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Doubt.
I've never really openly struggled with doubt. At least not in a major way. Sure I doubted, internally, that I could be good at what I do during the summer. But God took care of that. Then I doubted that I was good enough to be a part of the OID when that was what I really, Really, REALLY wanted to be a part of. But God took care of that. I also doubted whether anyone would ever love me, in a real way (besides my parents of course!). But God took care of that. I doubted that I could ever be a leader in any way, shape or form. But God took care of that. Then came Mexicali; this was a really big doubt! How could I, this Midwestern girl, go to a city where I didn't speak the language and still be able to communicate what Christ had done for me? Words were my biggest ally! I didn't think there was anything else. But God took care of that. He didn't miraculously give me the gift of tongues but he gave me love; the same love that He lavished on me when He sent his Son, he put into my heart to love the kids in Mexico.
(Hmmm....strangely enough there seems to be a pattern here!)
So now I come to something that I have been thinking and praying about for quite a while; full-time missions work. From Mexicali, I found that I definitely have a huge heart for all kids but especially for the kids in Mexico!! So being the bright student that I am I decided to do a little research! I was doing research for a project for a class and stumbled onto some pictures and stories from Mexico. I'll look into these, I thought to myself. BaD idea!! Of course the only thing newsworthy coming from Mexico is the incessant drug wars and the only pictures they have are of the destruction a few people have caused. The more I read and the more I looked at the pictures, the bigger and bigger my doubt became. It came to a point that all I really thought I could do was go home and lock my door!!
But then I started thinking about my doubt and then my desire to serve Christ; the desire began to outweigh the doubt more than I could possibly imagine!!! I could sit back and hear God telling me "I've got your back and I'll give you the words to speak and the actions. All I want is your willing heart! Are you willing to let me use you?" "Yes Lord" I answered. Although my heart was willing, my doubts were still shadows around my heart.
Later I was listening to the internet radio and someone came on and said "You are far safer out in the world, in places like East Asia, or War-torn Africa, or Latin America doing God's will, then you will ever be at home outside of God's will" It spoke volumes to me! Even if I went and did nothing more than make one child's day happier for an hour, I will have done it serving the Lord and I will be a light to his world. Even if I never get to go outside of the U.S. and all I pursue is this ministry, Street Corner Dance Crew, I will serve the Lord.
So my doubts have fled and my heart is willing Lord!! Send me where you will and I will serve you with all my Midwestern heart <3
~For if we live we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or die we are the Lord's~ Romans 14:8
(Hmmm....strangely enough there seems to be a pattern here!)
So now I come to something that I have been thinking and praying about for quite a while; full-time missions work. From Mexicali, I found that I definitely have a huge heart for all kids but especially for the kids in Mexico!! So being the bright student that I am I decided to do a little research! I was doing research for a project for a class and stumbled onto some pictures and stories from Mexico. I'll look into these, I thought to myself. BaD idea!! Of course the only thing newsworthy coming from Mexico is the incessant drug wars and the only pictures they have are of the destruction a few people have caused. The more I read and the more I looked at the pictures, the bigger and bigger my doubt became. It came to a point that all I really thought I could do was go home and lock my door!!
But then I started thinking about my doubt and then my desire to serve Christ; the desire began to outweigh the doubt more than I could possibly imagine!!! I could sit back and hear God telling me "I've got your back and I'll give you the words to speak and the actions. All I want is your willing heart! Are you willing to let me use you?" "Yes Lord" I answered. Although my heart was willing, my doubts were still shadows around my heart.
Later I was listening to the internet radio and someone came on and said "You are far safer out in the world, in places like East Asia, or War-torn Africa, or Latin America doing God's will, then you will ever be at home outside of God's will" It spoke volumes to me! Even if I went and did nothing more than make one child's day happier for an hour, I will have done it serving the Lord and I will be a light to his world. Even if I never get to go outside of the U.S. and all I pursue is this ministry, Street Corner Dance Crew, I will serve the Lord.
So my doubts have fled and my heart is willing Lord!! Send me where you will and I will serve you with all my Midwestern heart <3
~For if we live we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or die we are the Lord's~ Romans 14:8
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